Assessing

I am 22 years old turning 23 this August 30. I am a Virgo. And just like a typical Virgo, I am shy, smart, and sometimes snotty. I can be mean and condescending, especially when I am tired or lack sleep. I find it difficult to sleep at night, my mind races at night. I have no patience with stupid people, though I pity them and feel like a jerk for having no patience with them. I am a jerk. Sometimes. My favorite thing to do is, actually, doing nothing. I want to be a writer. I also want to be a graphic designer. Or a painter. Or a singer. I love books, my favorites of which are “The Corrections” by Jonathan Franzen, “Three Junes” by Julia Glass, “A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius” by Dave Eggers, and “Great Expectations” by Charles Dickens. I hope to create a hybrid of these literary styles one day. I also love music - jazz, alternative, rock, blues, pop, classical, musicals - name it, I love it. I admire John Mayer and Jamie Cullum and hope to grow up like them someday. I love Fiona Apple and her words; pure poetry her lyrics. My favorite movie is “The Hours”. My friends are mostly girls. I have a 7 year old guitar which I still don’t know how to play. I work in a bank, a junior officer for BPI. At 22, I earn almost half a million pesos anually, and I feel guilty for it. I graduated with honors in Mass Communications and received an Outstanding Student Award for Journalism, and yet I work in finance. Huh? My favorite hang-out places are book stores especially cheap, used book stores. I always order fish and chips when I’m out with my friends. I need to lose at least 30 pounds. I wear glasses, corrective for my astigmatism. I have half a degree in IT. I have many, many hang-ups and issues. I am addicted to shopping. Books, magazines, DVDs, CDs are one day gonna bury me alive. I’ve never had a girlfriend, though I’ve had two MUs (such a high-school thing to say) and many many crushes. I don’t know how to approach girls. I can’t think straight when I’m in love. I pine and pine but when I have the attention of the girl I’m pining for, I drift away. I like playing the tortured artist part. I’m messed up that way. It’s just who I am, in case you were wondering.